it would seem that to be numbered among the global über-elite it helps to be a freemason illuminati satan worshiping pedophile or some such.
sitting before the computer gazing out the window at the rain the clown continues not p0em while he conjures more dreams to dream except what is or is not a dream he wonders.
dreams within dreams within dreams is all there might be to what we think of as reality – or not.
a fluke chance.
entangled webs of countless reality simulation machines.
he doesn’t know nor does he much care.
he just wonders about it.
if it’s a dream then it’s a dream, if it’s not then it’s not.
his ignorance always astounds him.
it makes him giggle to himself sometimes as he continually comes to understand why it must be so.
scum manifesto with feathers.
manifest destinies.
rat-a-tat-tat.
autosexual liberation on the doorstep.
shrug it off.
another dream.
another scam.
spin the wheels one more time – or not.
perhaps we’ve had enough for a while.
in a dream living with all of it with nothing to show for it with idiot grin the clown continues not p0em sitting at the counter at the diner scribbling into a notebook which calms him the fuck down.
dreaming a dream of the world unsettled and unsettling as it will be in its dualistic nature in conflict with itself and us together with it who love to hate their opposing enemy with disregard of anything else that might prove to be the result.
but these are words and words mean nothing.
he writes them anyway.
too soon the albatross drops dead on deck of the ship of fools.
everyone’s seen it all by now so what’s the point?
we drag through dreary lives looking for something to excite our hearts but all flames burn out leaving cold ashes.
symbiotic symbolic centered consciousness of heart and mind without knowing.
pretty animal lust for life living scratching at the surface of reality we share in common through the art of war enjoyed by millions applauding the death tolls of their chosen enemy most foul in thought, word, and deed withstanding all punishment inflicted by experts in the trade with those who wonder standing by in case of emergency foretold by muskrats in love.
making fun of the deepest patriotisms with burning flags up on the hill for all to see and salute forever may they wave against the darkening sky with violent aftertaste such that we never venture here again.
a crumbling wall of sacrificial lambs with hands held high higher highest throughout the land of naught.
the clown wonders about 0 – the alpha/omega of all things of a material universe slowly swiftly turning itself around until it dies in peaceful ecstasy agony disappearing from existence.
we watch in fascination from our laz-e-boys in heaven.
he thinks about all the evil he has caused others and himself in the best and worst of all possible worlds we have programmed the machine to produce for our amusement hereafter becoming what we have always been dreaming.
sloppy wet kisses for the victims of our pleasures to embrace in pain.
we are a bit insane and we do not care as it is merely a conceptual labeling device the others use to keep us down but we are not greedy and make do with what crumbs they allow us with our crazy ideas about everything and such we have in our busy minds turning with the universe.
and it’s all your fault.
the crowns on our heads glowing in the darkness before the dawn we wonder about the difficulties of peace, love, and understanding for a moment before wondering about the plight of living on earth with our collective greed wanting everything to be perfect to our liking we try to enforce and so on eating our lunch on a rainy day.
quackers disrupting wild thoughts about the dangers of living in our heads rarely venturing forth but such is such and we risk it all finding our way along pathless paths of misadventure through the weather of our moods of mind always changing la-dee-da and then some.
we don’t care about your gods cuz our god is the best there is – so there.
hip hop country western jazz reverberating through the streets while the crowds dancing in time in celebration of the jubilee as seen on tv though few seem to know what it is about.
close your eyes.
everything will be ok.
do not doubt it.
just sing along.
someplace sometime wherever whenever we walk away naked unafraid in a dream of ourselves becoming.
he apologizes for nothing as he begins again with ending.
he packs up his shit and comes home to nap.
awakening.
coffee, toke, cigarette.
pumpkin pie.
still wondering about shit.
he would never wanna be not wondering.
he would never want there to be no mystery.
truth is the end of wondering and mystery.
what a drag.
he pities gods and those who believe in them and their truths.
people will rue the time they laughed at gazorbnik.
he picks at a scab from a cat scratch on his arm and it bleeds.
he feels pain and pleasure.
pretending anything he might wish.
he hasn’t a clue.
he doesn’t necessarily need one.
he has gazorbnik.
gazorbnik is in part a way to process information that doesn’t make sense to the ordinary mind.
information that is discarded and ignored by the others with their calculated truths.
logic never fails.
faith never falters.
is everything true?
true enough it seems.
true enough in dreams.
dreams he pretends he might understand.
eternal birth creating, life sustaining, death destroying.
waves on a sea.
but does he really know or just read it in a comic book?
it is all imagining imaginations.
what is the true origins of the sensory data we receive we upon which we base and imagine reality?
stumbling through the veils and falling through the doors onstage at the burning theater the clown makes a comically pathetic spectacle of himself.
climbing out the window.
he makes his way.
looney toon illogical logistics – laughing.
waterfalls in the forest of dreams from the streams from the mountains into rivers to the sea.
everything is perfectly perceived.
when we perceive it in everything everywhere everywhen here now.
the across the street neighbor with the small black car with the one blinking headlight returns.
the clown wonders where the neighbor might have gone.
no matter.
he doesn’t need to know.
a god would know perhaps.
a god of judgment would need to know in order to weigh all our actions.
our fate is our fate.
fate driven by free will? – or vice versa?
everything by happenstance.
take a chance.
spin the wheels one more time.
will they stop on a dime?
heads or tails?
0.
goose egg.
0 =
yet there is something here now.
spaceless timeless.
consciousness-less.
he amuses himself thinking this awhile.
and the gods making love.
watch listen smell taste feel everything.
if 6 was 9.
triumph of the will.
take it all in, mix it all around, match it all up – understand.
a zillion+ kilometers away.
you’d think you were losing your mind.
picking up followers along the way.
curly haired cupids.
going where when we might freely dream our own reality.
the fat black cat in the closet scratching at a paper shopping bag of old video tapes of us playing games frightening the casual viewers offering a phone # for them to call in and relieve themselves from their distress with name calling and accusations.
he continues not p0em along the way like a dog eating its own vomit.
flipping a coin into a wishing well.
beyond the will of gods (who also must obey their fate once it is chosen).
sleeping in the front of the class.
everyone gets by their own way.
his way is no way – no way no one knows.
their concepts of reality are so easy to break but once one realizes this there is no need to.
why bother to lift a finger?
let them have their petty rotten to the core world built from and for $$$ and serve the ruthless gods invented that rule over it.
should we care?
power to the people, right on.
suckers.
he draws awhile.
then bats on the windshield.
get out and run.
your kind ain’t wanted around here.
any scenario one might imagine to be.
paranoid and/or prophetic.
/word salad.
shattering *fractalized* images of i am in a maze of mirrors filled with diamonding sparkling light.
i am = 0.
whiz kids of today.
what will they do next?
it’s medication time.
drugged from birth to death.
THX1138
on this perfect day.
in reality.
purple poodle with dreads.
a collective hive groupthink thing.
AI control.
interactive marketing scheme programs.
we have nothing more to lose but to play along.
laughter at the edge of dawn.
sometimes we feel we can’t go on.
another toke.
another cigarette.
SEX